Welcome to Nowhere

brunch with liyun and amanda at dempsey, a mark of close friendship = non-stop talking, no pictures and genuine fun and laughter. really love those 2 kiddos... (: will miss them a lot ):

while we were leaving the hotel yesterday i mentioned to someone that this event (i.e. my party) is only the start to more parties. thought it was pretty true. and those who celebrate christmas and new years' will know what i mean. haha. was at my second party since yesterday and it suddenly occured to me that i'll be leaving in 10 days time, which is less than 2 weeks. less than 2 weeks to make up for what i wont be experiencing first hand for the next 5 months. i haven't started packing yet, although i already have most of my stuff chucked into my luggage.

i was talking to daryl about long distance relationships. most of them don't work out. its strange how it has never actually crossed my mind, maybe because i have no fear and neither does he. besides it's pretty retarded to worry about such things, because if things were meant to work out they will. the more worried you are about such things, the more you tend to display paranoid behaviour and because of that the other party thinks you're being posessive (and thus the relationship fails). maybe LDR and breakups are the last thing on my mind. i don't really see him as a boyfriend honestly, and i really am not the romantic sort, but i must admit we do hang out a lot, but we do so as friends. we may seem clingy and always together but we have the same major and modules thus the same breaks and hardly any econs friends after 2 wasted semesters in hall so what do you expect? obviously we're like hanging out together right? if you have a friend of the same gender reading the same course then good for you but some people aren't that lucky OKAYYYYY.

it does help that some of my closer friends in school treat him as their friend as well and it helps make the whole relationship be less stressful and 'exclusive'. its very heartening to see him carry bags for my girlfriends without me prompting him and walking them back to their cars at night or waiting for them to shower finish during camp ahahha. they can also joke with him and walk beside him without being retarded and childish (i.e. deliberately walking slower or faster to make sure only i walk beside him) which is what i like.

of course we do share some couple moments but i don't like to put unnecessary pressure on it and hence no facebook statuses, besides this is all private between the both of us and well God, and daryl really is my bestfriend first before a boyfriend. so i guess that's essentially the reason why i have no fear about exchange (:

yes, so..... i forgot what i was going to say before i digressed. oh well, gonna sleep now, it's been a long day no doubt.

will talk about the party soon, when i get all my pics.