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i'm so frustrated. waiting for my guru / philosophy 24h help-line to call me back (read: hanteng). i finished my term paper but its waaaaaaaaaay below expectations. haha, how funny i don't even know what to expect out of a philosophy paper- i guess it just doesn't feel right. you know? okay, there are some exceptions in which you feel its right but you get slapped with B instead of B+ / A- (what your gut tells you). ANNNNNNYYYWAYYY the point is, the more i write the MORE confused i get. i need more help, or divine intervention. i spend all day in my room writing my term paper and more time writing my term paper than surfing the net (which is a feat indeed, and in some ways rather worrying because you can tell how stressed i am & it goes against my very nature). i don't reply messages on time, i give one worded replies, and i lost my matric card! (old news) i've been neglecting Soci and Economics and i have a tutorial in approximately 9hours! ARGH!

anyway i slept like a freaking pig since my tutorial ended 6pm till 8.15pm. usually i'm okay with sleeping, but this time i have not ONE but THREE term papers due right after the recess week. it's approximately 5 pages each, so there u go- 15 pages of highly intellectual stuff...it's one thing to talk at length about a case/cite examples (which i find myself doing all the time) and another to comment intellectually. i tell u, my philo essay consists of 90% bullshitting and 10% philo. and the 10% is chui and will give me an F grade if hanteng doesn't reply me!!!!! i hope my brain cells survive during study week, coz i have two papers to study for and they are... KILLER! like seriously killer, u have no idea (math = killer). i'm suffering. the cause of my current pimple outbreak. i can't even talk normally, let alone have a healthy diet. i think i weigh 46kg now. note to self: weigh yourself when u get home this weekend.

ya ya ya, i'll post about v day soon & reply rachel's email & talk to liesel just that now i'm like (^@)!^£)!@^£!@. in other news, i really want a bandage skirt -sulks, pouts, whatever- obsession du jour!