you can breathe but the air is running out on you

double oh em gee. (in pertinence to my university admission and the screwed up online applications) i thought, maybe if i were to redo junior college , i wouldn't have even guaranteed a perfect certificate. blah. maybe before, but not now and maybe never again. i see it heading in that direction. maybe because of other external factors, or maybe it's just myself. however i'm glad this is happening, yet at the same time rather sad because i tend to be like this, and there's no way i can change it. besides it was rather stupid, really... i mean, i actually forced myself into it and i actually considered. hmm. i don't feel emo or whatever anymore but rather i just felt like it was a mistake and i hate myself for it.and more on facebook. i shall refrain from posting unglam photos of liz pigging out on food. don't ask why we're dressed like that ok zzz talk about feeling out of place. once again openhouse was less informative, but more of a social gathering. hahahaha.

we felt like losers after the buffet so we decided to get a life, so we went to hooters and errr we had some uber nice cocktail, which we downed so fast we looked like lobsters. and then there was the.........

i can't believe i actually did it. (at least i can strike out something from the list of things i must do before i die)