email from dad part 2 for keeps, part two:

my dad has the weirdest way of expressing his love although most of the time i don't reply his emails cos i think it's so weird... i'm just that way i guess. i just try to steer clear of anything mushy especially what's said face to face. and i don't have a habit of expressing my love openly to my family members cos it's weird too... acccck...


Good that you make the best of your time there and I really hope that your eyes to the world have been fully opened in the few short months you have been there. Singapore for all it is good qualities has a bad way of boxing up a person's mindset and outlook.


At your age you have much to look forward to and much that you can achieve if you find what you want. A step at a time will bring different experiences, opportunities and can shape your outlook and direction in life. You have been blessed with financial resources that allow you some of the experiences your mother and I did not experience early in our lives. Also the world was different 30 yrs ago.


I guess as parents we are glad to know that you are happy because its the single most important thing any parent wants for their children. Parents have children as a celebration of their love and joy in each other and hope that as they grow, they will find meaning and joy in their own lives.


Yes we have sent you on that journey and I hope that as you take it all in you will find more of the missing pieces in the puzzle that will complete your outlook and direction in life bringing you a lifetime of joy. I hope that there will also be pieces of the puzzle where God is honored for the great things he has done and will continue to do in your life.


Cheers
Daddy

i guess my dad kinda knows me well although i don't share anything with him (just weird, like i've said). i still AM going through a stage where i am still struggling to come to terms with things and discover who i really am and what i really want in life. it's great that i am starting to see the fuller picture over time, although it took me pretty long to figure out what i really wanted, but i'm so glad to know that my life could be a lot worse but what's worse didn't happen (: it could, but it didn't. that thought alone just makes me feel so satisfied. well, sometimes i wonder... like how would i know what i'm missing if i never even had it to begin with? accccccckkkkk i guess the grass is always greener on the other side most of the time, but you just need to look above and beyond that. i guess the plain on the other side ain't sunshiney too. glad i've seen that (:

right now, all i want to do is just to smile and take things in my stride, knowing that for every person who thinks i'll fail, there'll be 3 more who will stand beside me regardless.

positive vibes, positive vibes. being plagued by negative thoughts day in and day out really drains your energy away, and i learnt it the hard way. there's no point being sad. so what i tend to do is just push it away, play some happy music and smile (: gosh, look where i am now and what i've become... hard to see me in a depressive emo state like how i was in the past. wow.

god is so good. hallelujah.

p/s: i'll share more when everything is confirmed.